13 questions that I ask myself
Was it worth going through hell?
Trying to preserve our relationship
Fighting for something that I\'m not to sure exists
Something that feels so one sided
Fighting for what you believe in
Then losing it all
Struggling to win
At what cost?
Here I am older but not wiser
Still looking for closure from someone I used to admire
Who ignores my own wants and desires
Do I have to suffer to be who you want as a daughter?
Someone with fake words and forced laughter?
Am I just a lamb for slaughter?
Is my life that worthless?
Is to serve my only purpose?
I think I\'ve messed this up
Am I being too loud?
Am I not being loud enough?
How can I make you proud?
I can\'t tell if the flames are going up or down
Can\'t tell the difference between being silent or loud
Are you ashamed or proud?
Is it too soon or too late now?
Can I still turn this around?
Taught me honesty but not trust
Taught me tolerance not love
To me, it seems this is true
Like the only thing I\'m good at is being used
It\'s not your fault, you don\'t have a clue
That all I\'ve ever wanted was validation from you