Lost in the Bitterness
I didn’t know I was in it.
The thoughts spiraling out of control.
It wasn’t you.
It was me, that was bad for you all along.
I was holding you back.
I was lost in my bitterness.
And now I might lose you.
Every thoughtful act.
Undermined by another selfish act.
Putting you first was the intent.
Regurgitating promises.
And singing the same excuses.
You’re looking back thru the pages.
Looking for the man you loved.
I’m sorry my love.
I fear it’s a tragic comedy.
And the thought of it makes me weak.
That you’re clinging on to my shadow.
But it’s not even me.
I got lost in the bitterness.
I’ve forgotten who I was.
You should be flourishing and free.
Not praying and hoping.
Not waiting on me.
My love for you an endless ocean.
But I’m caught in a fierce storm.
And if I sink well…
I hope you pull me from the depths.
And wash your love over me.
And bring me home.