I believe I wish you to be happy.
But I also wish,
for you to return,
to regret,
to reach out.
I don\'t think you will.
I believe you run on logic and order,
practicability takes centre stage.
You never stray from what\'s known.
You do not take risks,
and you never have,
unless they are assessed.
I think a part of you,
rejects your feelings.
you prevent yourself from labelling situations as bad or hurtful,
and instead replace and label it as \"not ideal, but I\'ll work on it\".
Do you ever try to think of your feelings?
Or rather, feel your feelings?
You\'re a problem solver at your core,
you do not shy away from responsibility,
you fix and want to take on those things,
but you avoid acknowledgment of said issues.
Do you know why they\'re there?
Are you not curious?
You\'re the definition of a well-rounded person,
you always have good opinions,
but I\'m not sure if they are real.
You always say the right thing,
but I\'m not sure if you think that,
or if you are speaking to rectify.
I\'m unsure what you\'re afraid of,
but you\'re allowed to express how you feel.
You do not need to be perfect.
You lead a fulfilled life,
but one that has been intricately planned,
no space for fault.
Preparing in advance,
you allow only calculated mistakes.
You think,
I don\'t know if you feel, truly.
This is not a critique of who you are,
but a realisation of differences.
I knew you. But I always felt there was something missing.
Not that you held anything back,
but that what you\'re saying isn\'t true to what you believe.
But I don\'t think you know what you believe.
You only know right from wrong.
There is no in-between with you.
When you speak,
you recite,
you only ever speak of tangible things.
Your mind blocks the unknown.
When I speak,
I speak to express,
when you speak,
you speak to solve.
This is not inheritably a fault, but is it true to who you are?
I want genuineness,
even at the cost of conflict,
you want peace and to do the \'right\' thing,
even if it comes at the cost of honesty or authenticity.
I want you to know,
that there is no right answer.
You do not have to say the right thing.