I’m a walking ball of emotions,
Slowly bursting at the seams,
Sewing up the many tears,
A mask of calm is only seen.
Depression comes for me,
waves crashing on the shore,
Blocking out the rays of light,
Time of day- I’m now unsure.
Voices I thought long gone,
Now whisper lies within my ear,
but are they more truth? I fear.
I’m happy at this point in life,
Or so I surely thought-
Trapped with this storm of dark,
Has me thoroughly distraught.
This part of me I left in the past,
Yet this feeling is unexplainable,
watching as this lightbulb dims,
Perhaps happiness is unattainable.
I lived within a facade,
A momentary blissfulness,
Roses now start to wilt,
Damn me and my fickleness.
Open mouth I start to speak,
Or perhaps it’s more of a scream,
Instead I place back upon my mask,
A painted smile with teeth that gleam.