i lay
wrap myself in his sheets
and put my music on his speaker
there’s a cardboard cutout
of danny devito
standing in the corner
and though i know he’s there
i still laugh
and i am content, for once
even though
this life has been hard
even though
i’m slightly sick
even though
i thought i was done with it
turns out
i want more
two hours, until he gets home
and i am counting down
every second
waiting for his
arms to wrap themselves
around me tight
and i admire
my ability to stay calm, here
when usually i cannot, ever
regulation is something
i still work on daily
and just lately
i’ve been finding it near-impossible
but here
my mind is clear
i am soft
i feel like enough
finally, i feel it
enough
i am wrapped in his sheets
listening to michael, melanie
porter and creeper
queen, juice,
chloe and sabrina
danny devito is
smiling from the corner
and the corners of my smile
are so tired from
smiling so much
my darling
i’ve never smiled so much
i’ve never felt so much love.
13:15pm - 29/11/25 - in his bed.