I said no.
And you—
You looked at me like that word was weak,
Like it didn’t belong in a man’s mouth.
Like because we shared the same flesh,
It wasn’t rape—
Just rough play,
Just boys being boys,
Just don’t be a bitch about it.
But I said it.
I fucking said it.
NO.
And you didn’t stop.
You treated my body like a dare,
Like consent was optional,
Like because I’d kissed you once,
I’d signed up to be torn open.
I didn’t give you permission.
I gave you trust.
And you ripped it out of me
With every thrust
Like a weapon.
I didn’t freeze—
I fought.
But you were stronger.
And I was too drunk.
And too scared.
And you knew that, didn’t you?
I said stop.
You said, “Relax.”
I said please.
You said, “You know you want it.”
I didn’t.
I fucking didn’t.
But you still split me
Like I was something to be conquered.
Your sweat.
Your breath.
Your weight—
Pressed down like a coffin lid
While I died underneath.
I said no.
And you made it feel like I never had a right to.
And afterward?
You lit a cigarette like you just got off.
I curled in on myself like a crime scene.
You laughed.
I bled.
You left.
I broke.
You left me with a silence
So loud it still screams in my ears
At 3AM
When I can\'t tell the difference
Between a nightmare and memory.
Because \"men can\'t get raped.\"
Because \"are you sure it wasn’t just regret?\"
Because \"why didn’t you fight harder?\"
But I said no.
And you didn’t stop.
And I will never fucking forget that.
So here I am.
With the voice you tried to steal.
With the fire you thought you could snuff out.
With the truth that makes people uncomfortable.
You didn’t just rape a body—
You tried to erase a soul.
But I survived you.
I survived.
And now, I speak for every man
Too scared to say it out loud.
Too afraid to be called a liar,
Too broken to feel human again.
I said no.
You didn’t stop.
But I’m still here.
And this time—
I won’t.