Aaron Roberson

I just wanna SCREAM!!

I don’t want a goddamn birthday reminder

I don’t want your fake ass smile

I don’t want your name tied to mine

like a curse I never asked for

 

I want the truth to rip the fucking ceiling open

I want the floor to spit you out

I want the air to choke on memory

the same way I did in that house

 

They say you’re supposed to love your mother

but tell me—

how the hell do you love a monster in your skin?

How do you kiss a hand

that only ever knew how to hurt you?

 

You didn’t raise me.

You FUCKED me up.

 

You carved fear into my bones

taught my body it wasn’t mine

turned my childhood into a goddamn crime scene

and left me to clean up the blood in silence

 

And the world wants me to forgive you?

To send flowers?

To post some bullshit “thank you for everything” line?

 

No.

 

I hope you feel me in every slammed door

every cracked plate

every shaking breath I finally let out

I hope the anger burns your name off my tongue

until you are nothing but a sour taste

I spit into the dirt

 

I JUST WANNA SCREAM

until my throat tears open

until my lungs spit fire

until the walls that watched me suffer

learn how to fucking apologize

 

I just wanna scream

because someone should have protected me

Someone should have stopped you

Someone should have believed me

 

And now?

Now I’m the voice you can’t shut up

Now I’m the storm you can’t ground

Now I’m the survivor you couldn’t bury

 

This isn’t hatred.

This is me ripping your chains apart.

This is me saying you don’t own

a single fucking second of my life anymore.

 

This.

Is.

My.

Revolt.