My body spasms are getting worse every single day
I am having to take more Diazepam each day because they are getting so bad, incontrollable and painful
I can’t even enjoy my life vulnerability, is not worth to play
Anymore, I can’t be happy about my horrible life, I do try make it seem as if it’s wonderful
To my disbelief, my fake smile can fool you into believing I am having fun
But you don’t know I am fooling you how I am grimacing in my pain
I wish that I was in hot weather to soothe my agony in the heat of the sun
As soon as my eyes are open, another avalanche of tears starts pouring again
Every morning I wake up, feeling like I am in total despair in my own little hell
My muscles are constantly hurting from they are continuously hurting from contracting
I am so tired of being sore from my muscles spasms, can’t you even see or tell
I want it to stop because I’m so sick of this pain. I can’t even deal with no good, doctor discussing
Discussion with me about my pain, over the phone it won’t solve my physical issues
This pain is permanent and a mental struggle to daily overcome it
All the alone, I cry silently in my room, I wipe tears away with my tissues
All of my agony, my twisted thoughts and my emotions, this is increasingly shit