I try to write poems,
But I\'m not a poet.
Everything I write is a crapshoot:
Unpredictable, inconsistent, unreliable.
Don\'t try to use my poems as collateral.
My words are not dependable.
I cannot guarantee deeper meaning.
So, don\'t be surprised if you can\'t find it.
I\'m literally making things up as I go.
I don\'t write an outline.
I don\'t have an agenda.
And I will go through contortions just to make things rhyme.
Sometimes.
There is no method to my madness.
There\'s just madness
And medication to keep it in check.
An imposter posing as someone that I once knew:
An innocent, an ingenue,
Myself from 1982.
I was still in college then,
And I knew nothing about anything.
I was totally unprepared
for all the things that would happen.
But now that they have, I haven\'t learned a thing.
I still smile and laugh when I\'m uncomfortable.
I still want things that aren\'t affordable.
That cottage on Virginia Beach is still a dream.
It will never be.
I\'ve lived my life as I write my poems.
Unplanned and unaware of reality.
Just hoping the end will be happy.