I didn’t forget what pain felt like,
I just thought I could finally push it away,
I didn’t forget how it felt to not be wanted,
I just thought I could somehow be wanted,
I didn’t forget who I was,
I just thought I could change
I didn’t forget how to hide who I am,
Or how I feel, I just forgot I had to,
I didn’t forget what it was like to have as closed heart,
I just forgot how painful it is to keep it open,
But the good thing is I won’t forget again,
I won’t feel again, I won’t think again,
I won’t break my own heart again,
Because once again it’s my fault.