REBELLIOUS SOUL

THIS IS HOW YOU GROW UP.

I watch it happen

That is a crime

 

My hands learned restrain

Before they learn courage

I wanted to break something-

Him, his mouth, his hands-

I wanted to break the rule that said

\'stay quiet or make it worse\'.

 

I was old enough to understand it all

But too young to say \'stop\'.

So I stood guard instead of fighting

Turning my life in a lie

Smiled for the smaller one behind me.

 

Anger lived in my jaw

But I stayed quiet

Counting how many parts of myself

I can lose and still function.

 

They call it growing up-

I call it being forced-

To watch, to listen, to be part of

And to be stolen of my childhood.

 

                                       -REBELLIOUS SOUL.