hard when u realise that u cannot love urself when u lose the people that love u
the people that didn\'t share ur blood
but accepted every single thing that made u – u
now u just feel like everything that u liked ab u
is just another big flaw that everyone sees
bc after u feel left out and they don\'t realise it
everything in the world feels small and not worth paying attention
every mini problem seems gigantic and unsolvable
every reel that u used to share daily to ur bsf now just seems forced and something that uk they will not see
everything u wanna do seems just a hopeless dream
since u have no one to do it with u
nothing is enough to make u see the world\'s spark again
almost anything will make u cry and u just can\'t help but cry urself to sleep bc u just can\'t share anything with them
u can\'t really be happy
ur just having fun now and then
but when u stay alone with ur thoughts for 15 seconds
everything goes back to the way it is
ur back to reality
the place where it doesn\'t matter how much ur trying
u will never be enough to make everyone around u happy
trying to do stuff u like it\'s just wasting time
since u have nothing better to do
and sending messages to those people just makes u feel down
feel doubt
will they even be happy to hear from u?
u wonder
or r they just responding out of politeness?
politeness for a relationship that one day was incredible
now it just feels forced and something that\'ll die with time...