today i looked up at the moon
and the clouds were making it blurry
but i could still see it
and i knew it was there
that kind of reminded me of u
how ur image isn\'t really clear to me
but you\'re in there
ig
somewhere in the world
waiting for me
or maybe i\'m the only one waiting
i hope not
but it might be the cold hearted truth
the truth that rn u don\'t have a care in the world
but i still wait
i wait for the right moment
i keep telling myself that
that moment will only come when i\'m 18
at the least
because then i will be more conscious
conscious of my acts
my words
and maybe then i will be able to love u properly
to cherish u
to know what to do
no matter the situation
idk if i was ever in love
maybe i would\'ve been if i wasn\'t waiting for u
but i won\'t ever regret that
since u give me standards
u allow me to not get heartbroken
to be independent
truth is
i\'m not independent at all
people see me as independent tho
but i depend on relationships way too much
but u allow me to not get used over and over again
u make me strong
and even tho u don\'t know that yet
(and neither do i)
i already love u
i love all ur quirks
i love all ur right doings and all ur mistakes too
i love ur personality
i love ur physic, ur facial features
but it\'s not ab the features
it\'s ab the fact that ily
that sentiment of love allows me to love u
even if idk how u look yet
or how u talk,
how u act or react,
how u are or how u aren\'t,
i still love u
ily with all my might
and i\'m glad that today\'s blurry moon reminded me of that