Akshadha_Joshi1310

Pretty Isn\'t Pretty Enough

I try everything I can,

I change my hair,

And I go through outfits yet I fall into despair,

I look in the mirror and realise the truth ---  I hate how I look .

 

I don\'t like how my hair frames my face,

I look in the mirror and feel pure disgust,

I was fine before, then I fell from grace,

I\'ve started struggling again; another one bites the dust.

 

I don\'t like how my body looks, I think I look too thin,

But at the same time, I possess a violent fear of gaining weight,

The scale has become my enemy,

Before eating I\'ve started to hesitate.

 

No matter what I do , there\'s always something in the mirror that I think looks wrong,

Compliment are starting to feel like twisted lies,

I can\'t get myself to believe them,

Now looking too long in the mirror feels like torture and I fall into demise.

 

I look in the mirror picking at every flaw I find,

And I can\'t get myself to stop even though I want to,

It\'s like I\'m not even looking at myself anymore in the mirror,

It\'s someone else entirely and I hate how she looks.

 

I think to myself, \"maybe it\'s not that bad\",

But I don\'t believe that,

And even if I do , there\'s always a mirror,  always a reflection, lurking, waiting to prove me wrong,

And all of a sudden I\'m back where I started.

 

I spend hours looking in the mirror,

Trying to fix whatever is wrong,

I feel sick to my stomach looking at my picture,

Because after all, pretty Isn\'t Pretty Enough.