“A love too deep,The love I couldn\'t keep”
A haze hangs heavy, day by day,
My life, a dream, in shades of gray.
No questions asked, no reasons sought,
This strange facade, internally wrought.
A whisper lingers, low and deep,
That something\'s broken, secrets keep.
I know it\'s there, the flawed design,
A twisted root, that won\'t untwine.
I loved too fiercely, once upon,
My heart exposed, beneath the sun.
A thousand shards, a painful cost,
All that bright passion, shattered, lost.
Then came the warmth, a gentle hand,
A love offered, I couldn\'t understand.
They stood before me, clear and true,
But love\'s old magic, wouldn\'t renew.
I talked to him, a simple joy,
A girl made happy, no longer a boy.
Laughter danced, like sunlit rain,
Friendship bloomed, erasing pain.
We bridged the space, a loving start,
My boyfriend now, with my whole heart.
The talks continued, smiles remained,
But in my soul, a seed of doubt sustained.
A creeping shadow, filled with dread,
Unspoken fears, inside my head.
Questions I posed, with careless ease,
That threatened bonds, and chilling breeze.
I pushed him back, with unseen force,
Ignoring warnings, and the course
Of future happiness, side by side,
My fear, a turbulent, rising tide.
Now clarity dawns, with bitter sting,
He wasn\'t wrong, he didn\'t cling
Too tight, or falter, or deceive,
The fault lies solely, I believe,
Within myself, the broken ground,
Where love\'s true flowers, can\'t be found.
I poured it out, with reckless grace,
And now I\'m empty, in this place.
I loved too much, a burning fire,
Now ashes only, fuel desire
For something real, a love reborn,
But fear remains, since that cold mourn.