For the longest time,
You were the one,
I would speak to,
I would,
Laugh,
Cry,
Argue with you.
Now that distance has increased,
Our relationship has taken a toll,
Despite my efforts to maintain it,
To what it once was,
My efforts run short,
Flat.
Our connection was deep,
And honest,
But perhaps our connection was
fuelled,
supported,
maintained,
and defined by our close proximity.
To me,
you were my best friend.
I can no longer,
claim you as such.
Not out of malice,
or resentment,
but self protection,
self respect,
the need for honesty.
This is not a way for me to express loathing towards you,
but an honest reflection.
I want our relationship to bloom,
In the way,
i know it can.
But for that to happen,
I must take a step back,
You love me in your way,
And I accept that,
Finally,
I accept that.
For so long,
My heart was hurting,
Every call you missed,
Every message you replied late too,
Every time I tried to reach,
out for connection.
Self serving at times,
But I just wanted to reach you.
I wanted to chat to you,
I’ve explained this,
Countless times to you,
And it upsets me that you don’t understand,
I know you try,
But we are different in this way,
Maybe I feel too much,
But you don’t feel enough.
I want to love you for you,
Without the niggiling resentment,
I have towards you,
I don’t want to resent you.
I want to set you free,
You are fine as you are,
I accept you as you are.
You were once my best friend,
And now you are my sister.