You were my father
You were supposed to care
But instead you always beat me up
And you were never there
You were drinking, never thinking
You never listened to me
Despite the way I was brainwashed
You always loved to hurt me
You were always cruel and cold
And now I\'m traumatized
There was always some defect in me
When I looked into your eyes
You were always manipulating
Perverted on layered levels
You ruined my whole teenage-hood
Because I grew up with the devil
Anything I\'d say to you you\'d mock and contradict
I often got so mad at you cause you were such a dick
You weren\'t there
You didn\'t care
And so I drugged myself with porn
You put Satanic marks on me the moment I was born
Every night I lay in bed
afraid of monsters from the dead
Watching me with evil eyes
And grabbing my small child head
I always had to pick myself up
right after you knocked me down
You talked to me like I was stupid
And I was fucking around
I just wanted peace but you always picked a fight
My heart would always sink when you came into my sight
I always had to protect myself from you
so i could survive
I didn\'t want to be with you cause you were never alive
I thought that you were God
And I was just a sinner
At least you worked so hard for us so we could have our dinners
Sometimes we laughed
Sometimes you gifted
Once in a while the mood was lifted
But it never lasted long enough before I always darkly shifted
Now here I am a wounded man
I wonder; what comes next?
Will you ever see the light?
Or will you take your sins to death?