Sometimes I feel like I’ve lost everything
Like I have nothing to be gained
Like I’m not worth loving
Or treating like a normal person
Like I’m 50 shades of something different
Something problematic
Something sad
I’ve always been so confused
I’ve done nothing bad
Am I telling the truth?
I believe I am
I don’t know what to do
There is only so much else I can lose
It hurts
Everyday
Every moment
It’s still gray
It’s still blue
It’s still calling for you
I feel as if I’m drowning again
It feels like I’ll never win
Just a loser till the very end