Waseka Mehrin

Too Much To Ask For

She tiptoed-

sneaked into this house, that house,

smelling faint aromas, hunger gnawing at her bones.

Wearing that same frock maybe

since Babylon’s towers first touched the clouds?

Could she be the one?

No. God has His favorites.

 

On a sunny day,

when cotton candies seemed extra pink,

amidst the amusement park laughs,

she sank,

clutching her cold pocket

among the crowd’s ring.

 

sugarcane on vans

looked like invisible grips on sticks,

coming toward her,

leaving scars like red hibiscus-

she imagined.

Reason?

Wanting to inhale

the same air as the rich,

responding to the yearns of her dying body alone.

Was it too much to ask for?

 

One day

dreaming of food—a hit, just like

tsunami waves crashing on the bank.

what on earth was she fighting for?

Maybe one or two loaves of bread.

Was it too much to ask for?

 

She looked up into the sky.

Mother must be fire with fury on high

she murmured,

“mama, dey don come.. dey no wipe my teers.”

One, two, three drops—

the whole rain on the ground.

 

Every coffee-scented Sunday

car doors opened,

kids got goodbye kisses for school.

But she-

she was thrown away like a forgotten nuke.

A little bit of attention-

Was it too much to ask for?

 

No one ever held her in arms

except shopping mall stairs.

Neither did the only puppy she had,

soft brown fur, tail wagging like broken hope,

until he was gone.

A warm hug? Where? What for?

Was it too much to ask for?

 

Stormy nights didn’t bother her—

nor the thrashing tires of trucks rushing by.

She feared only the animals

who are “human,” as known.

 

Her brunette hair, rough,

reminded her how rough it felt

to have one full meal once.

No one to touch her wet marshmallow cheeks

and sigh along with her one ounce.

 

Just to find daily bread,

emptiness flooded her tiny head.

A hope for golden sun rays

running through the mini hole

could she someday gear up like a doll?

 

She wanted gravity

to stop pulling her tears.

Wanted nightingales

to sing death

for those whom she feared.

Forever locked—her fate’s door.

Where would she even find a shore?

Was it too much to ask for?

 

She loved rain like a poet loves sorrow.

Even on the verge of

getting washed away like a used tissue thrown,

she thought,

got puzzled by her life’s curve:

why didn\'t she deserve

a warm couch just to sit by the window,

wherever her silly mind may follow?

 

“Could I shine like a dazzling moon?”

Little did she know

her dreams would shatter like olive leaves too soon.

One day,

sparrows didn’t compete to sing better.

Flowers’ honey tasted plain.

Only the cars blew air on and on,

city lights blinked like luciferin.

A screech. A hollow thud.

Who’s that little piece of flesh?

 

Had she been held

like a kangaroo child

with toys and candies on top

would she still yearn for

the finger Momma once kept between her fist

when she was newborn?

No one could wait, fearing the scolding of bosses at the office desk.

 

Only the birds knew.

The rough-stoned roads hewed.

busy “humans” smirk,

dodging the mourning-air

like finding directions in the dark.

 

She left

playing invisible violin tunes,

haunting the nestlings,

waving hands to the dark

leaving the clouds to whisper;

What’s too much to ask for?