The battle for the Soul is as
brutal as the battles of men,
but sight of justice is the pleasure
of God alone.
ARTHUR RIMBAUD
I
I used to dream! Yes, there once was a time,
but they never seemed to come true. So over the
taunting time that elapsed, my reality became
violently twisted and composed of chaotic hues!
Sometimes I wish I could just sleep forever
beneath the dawn of escape and never awake...
Yes, never awake!
O, how I wish I were a young lad again, full
of hopes and dreams that someday when...I would
be grown and the truth would be known. But now
that I am, I find the truth not at all very
kind!
So now, my dreams have become reality and
my waking life, but an illusion from the blind
eyes of a philosopher!
II
FANT/LUSION
LIFE is indeed the big illusion!
A dark and weary Dream!
An infinite recycling circus!
The ultimate gamble!
Throw down thy soul upon the Roulette
wheel of Chance and give her a
SPIN!
Round and round, watch it go.
Where will it stop? Only one knows!
Tis judged by your actions committed
on a physical sphere. By the power
of which spirit will you pray? To
what voice, will you adhere?
How up, if at all, will you end?
Eternal celestial Paradise you could
hold freely in the palm of your hand OR
Darken your Soul wallowing about in the
ashes of Sin and a perpetual furnace of
tormenting agony you shall...
win?
III
Be you a Wise Man or a Fool, in the End,
all will be Judged the same. All that truly
matters is how you play the GAME.
IV
The hand that hurts can also become the
instrument that heals. Like a razor blade
sealing an open wound with sterile precision.
A master of undying compassion!
V
I\'m slowly digging my grave with each Word
that I write! And in the End, I\'ll be buried
DEEP, forever left to sleep, yet awakened every
so often to be tortured by the Demons that have
possessed me during my life and will follow me
into Eternity!
VI
We must shelter the innocent from Life\'s
corrupting rain and temptation\'s beautiful
yet deadly web of inevitable destruction!
VII
Beneath the neon Sun, the night explodes with
both passion and pain. Couples in Love walk
hand in hand past an alley sheltering a battered
woman and her child dressed in rags, faces expressionless;
yet the agony easily slips through their not so tough
exterior Wall in the form of blood and tears!
VIII
Though lost you are in the blackest of nights, I
will comfort thee and give you new Life! Shed not
those tears and abandon your fears. I will give you
Peace and for your Soul, I shall grant Eternal Happiness!
Even as I sit on my throne, by the blinded Fool
I am convicted, but in judgment, the tables will
be turned against them; yet for those who believe,
no more wounds upon thy Soul will be inflicted!
Peace for the pure!
Poverty for those who possess riches, attempting
to shield their insecurity and lack of Love with
tarnished glitter!
Watch the innocent myrmidons labor for their masters!
Blindly and slowly dying with each passing
breath spent working beneath the Sun! No Life to
lead is one spent in bondage, but it\'s only physical
and just a fraction of the Time that you will someday
know!
Fear not, for ye shall receive your reward where
Love is forever present. Your master\'s fortune was
built all in VAIN! The wealth will bury their bodies
and melt down their heart and Soul unless they rid
themselves of false fortune and gain Real tangible
glory through Love and repentance!
Not so easy giving up All your Worldly goods and
knowledge to follow a Prophecy designed in another
Realm which solely exists because of your faith.
Living on an Earthly kingdom whose gods are physical
and temptation is forever present, most of these dwellers
don\'t recognize the Laws of this Ethereal Doctrine!
But that\'s okay! Become a martyr! Die in Vain, if
that\'s what they say but ye shall reap the harvest of
your suffering and never know Pain!
We\'re all just chasing after an illusion of Light
created by our unconscious minds, but when the Truth
is revealed, your darkness will be shown...Nevermore
to be sealed! YOU HYPOCRITE!!
IX
Just in case your wondering about the poet\'s sanity:
It seems to come and go from time to time but as of right
now, everything\'s ALMOST fine! HA!
YES! There will be no Reality for me as long as I have
the ability to create!!
Now I begin to wonder.
My thoughts haunt me as my mind begins to drift and
inquisitively ponder:
what is to become of me once I cross over into the
Afterlife? The twisted Cross and horrors of Hell or
the Sacred tears of Heaven?
STOP!
O piercing eyes and bleeding heart, for one moment
please release me from the torturous knowledge of facts
that so burden my soul with PAIN!
I wish to know nothing! I will not leave my mark on
this world, for I have never even existed physically.
Only mentally in the nightmares that your easily
influenced mind possesses!
Listen to me!
Insanity occurs when your mind can\'t accept
your true present reality, so you unconsciously
create your own and try to live up to it!
Then you lose it! HA! HA! HA! Madness is so
much fun!
But it\'s perfectly normal on this planet. I have
seen many cases before but not as acute or perfected
as mine!
You see. I\'ve already recognized my illness and can
keep it in constant balance with reality. Reality?
What\'s that? Switching over in an instant. controlling
the thoughts. Directing them. like kinetic energy being
drawn forth from the vortex of the mind! HA! HA! HA!
Insanity! The most painful disease known to Mankind!
Neither Cancer nor AIDS can eat away at you as fierce
as this cold Bitch can!
Yes, the Beast knows not mercy, for he has never been
granted any himself! Beaten, electrocuted and locked
away to rot! Yes, I guess you could say his temper got
rather hot. Lovely vengeance, let\'s play games. You\'re
first...and the last!!
It\'s the disease of all poets, philosophers and dreamers
everywhere. I still can\'t believe it\'s shunned and looked
down upon the way it is since it\'s shared the company of
so many great men and women throughout the ages!
Once the mind goes, it\'s over! You\'ll never be truly
reborn or resurrected again! Cast in Hell on Earth!
Led blindly into the fire to be slowly consumed by human
hatred and mockery! Lucifer rules Earth with a hungry
grin. It\'s his monopoly. He wants you to SIN!!
X
Earth is Satan\'s playground and people, merely rides!
See how easily his powers can overcome you? His
transmissions, through our own devices, can unconsciously
hypnotize!
If you make this place your kingdom, in a similar domain
you will abide. Please, relinquish your grasp on this
false haven for your Soul and ye shall finally know the
Truth. Never again will it hide!
Blind eyes, they mislead you! How could you let your
faith be shattered by lies? You give up Eternity for
fast salvation!
Remember this: Once your Soul falls, never again
shall it rise!
XI
The farther I slip away from Reality\'s loose grasp,
much harder it becomes to answer the riddles I ask.
In this World\'s oldest question, I humbly asked, \"WHY?\"
It\'s for you to know my son...AFTER YOU DIE!!!
XII
In my agony I left behind, a world torn and tortured,
unkind. Tears stream down my pale cheeks as I fly
high above the desolate ground on wings of sorrow with
a song that only the deaf can hear! How unwise you
were to have wasted my gift to you! I thought you would
have learned by now: Once you fall, the cold ground is
quite near.
XIII
Vices are nice when reality\'s no fun but take them
away...and you\'re on the RUN! HA! HA!
I know it\'s hard to fight a losing battle without a
shield but stand tall and give Life your best.
Just unfurl your Flag of Denial toward Temptation and
your problems will surely yield!
XIV
Things or people you know nothing about cannot be
judged accordingly! Ignorance of an issue means you
have no business inquiring in the first place. So unless
you want to be killed by your own curiosity:
Stay away unless your willing to play!
Dark is your mind, kept lit only by your desire to
douse my raging inferno. You say I lie? Do you have
another version of the Truth?
Everyone does! Only when we try to prove the validity
of our truths do we have conflict! Right and wrong become
divided concepts in each of the debaters minds!
Your truth, to them, are just Lies and their Reality,
to you, are but Dreams! Incomprehensible logic to minds
that are closed! Knowledge is your only way to gain freedom!
XV
My immortality, I will not deny. Death claimed me in
the end only to sacrifice me later to the god of perpetual
incarnations!
XVI
Dreams cast out to the public unaware, are but misty
vapors, invisible logic...not there. Yes, it\'s
sad but true, too often we find our personal convictions
being overruled by the harsh truth set forth by temporary
gods...unkind!
Please tell me, why must I be cursed with this gift
of second sight? Locked inside this fortress and tortured
by my phantasmal might?
I don\'t know, do you?
XVII
THE MIND LEARNS, THE HEART YEARNS
O LOVE, why hast thou not cast your shadow on thee?
I know...It was my fault! You were never invited into
my life.
In my blind pursuit of fortune and glory, Avarice, that
lustful fellow, took hold of my heart and suspended it
most painfully for what seemed like Eternity until I was
forcibly dropped to my knees and made to beg for your
divine gift!
In my blatant stupidity, I was wrong!
Riches do not warm your heart with happiness nor fill
your Soul with Peace! Never again will I stray, for I
dare not take that lonely path again!
XVIII
When you first entered into Life\'s world of Power
and Lies, did you ever think you were contributing
to your own demise? I think not!
So torn apart in mind and heart, your wounds will
never heal. You wanted excitement, money and fame,
so with your own greed, you struck a deal!
XIX
In God\'s eyes, Everything is One under the Sun!
Only humans Divide.
Life is like a fist full of sand. You hold it in your
palm for a brief moment, then it easily slips through
your fingers like it was never meant to be!
Tis not for fame that I wrote this, but for some
lonely dream child to read it and blow me a kiss:
Honoring the precious fluid spilt from my still
Bleeding Heart!
XX
I have learned this: If you have something that
you love, someone out there in this cold world is
going to take it away from you if you make your
pleasure known to them!
Let no one know your true feelings, for you will
be condemned by your own release!
XXI
Our naked faces hide behind many masks, granting
us expression. Our thoughts remain unheard by
mortal ears yet surface, like a thief in the night,
through Painting, Song and Poetry, the voices of
the gods!
XXII
Close your eyes sweet child and dream! Thou
needst not awake only to be blinded by that which
I have tried to shield you from!
Sweet Sorrow, please abandon me!
Begone darkness! Shroud me not with your curses
of Death! Alas, in other days I might have wished you
to claim me yet...not now! God how I savor each
passing breath!
Your angels, they caress me with their tranquil songs.
How peaceful they seem...yet still so far away from a
mortal\'s touch...much too long.
Humans have longed for immortality ever since the beginning
of Time, but it\'s that uncertainty of what follows
Death...it makes that Bell... they wish it not
to chime!
And that struggle for survival; the animal instinct
within us all, it makes us fight to the bitter end.
Yet even if Time is infinite, mere flesh alone cannot
yield the soul\'s request to be free! So eventually, it
decays and returns to it\'s pristine state...
...Grains of golden glitter awaiting rebirth into the
Dawn!
XXIII
APOCALYPSE
O Horsemen of Doom, Man\'s image in different form,
why have you brought forth destruction every since
the Earth was born?
Temporary Paradise once held you in your stall but
that soon vanished upon Sin\'s introduction to Man...
now only darkness falls!
Your hooves claw deep this mangled Land. War has
made his appearance as many a Ruler with a greedy and
lustful hand.
Death abounds, bringing Night to people so ill, yet
if disease doesn\'t do you in, someone else will try
to kill!
Someday, Good will overcome Evil forever! It has been
written. But not soon enough to stop the World\'s
progressive suicide before her destruction and rebirth!
Morally, spiritually, ethically!
No not physically!
You see, Satan\'s familiars embody our souls and blind
us unknowingly, for we cannot see or touch them. They do
their damage working through our thoughts and actions and
are unavoidable to Worldly dwellers not yet Saved!
Destined since the beginning of Time. All of Mankind
must pay for the first Sin every day that they live
on Earth. Praying for release from their sentence but
there will be no Pardon...only Death and Judgment!
We are but ripples in the puddle of Life. Made to run,
then disappear, never to be seen again!
Our real purpose, none of which there is, kept hidden
by tasks conjured up from ethereal hands because
Miracles sinned!
DUST! Crystallized organs and intelligence! Just add
water and blood with a little divine influence thrown in
to make the miracle complete!
Build yourselves a kingdom, you need me not. I have
abandoned you temporarily, just as backs have been turned
on me, to see how well you handle Temptation! You curse
me when something goes wrong but it\'s not I hearing your
hypocritical screams!
Foolish mortals, you\'ll never believe me until it\'s too
LATE!
XXIV
As the fallen rise up and the past risen return to
their kingdoms beneath, Time once again repeats itself.
Same plot, scene, script. Different actors, actresses
and setting!
This time, it\'s now!
Beware of the Bitch with a dagger in her hand! Turn
not your back and close your heart! If you let her get
too close, she\'ll tear you apart! Do it with a smile
baby!
Love aborted, pain abounds. Your flesh once caressed
mine, now only coldness surrounds!
In the midst of my dreams, I prayed not to awake. I
could have held you there for Eternity yet you slapped
me from my peaceful slumber and told me it was a mistake!
O please do not shatter my Life this way! Can\'t you
give me just one more chance? You\'ve made me realize how
foolish I\'ve been. How can you write about Love when you\'ve
never known true Romance?
I am exposed now! Poison me with your impurities!
XXV
THE JUDGMENT
My God, why hast thou forsaken me during my hour of
trial? What sin has cursed me to deserve your denial
of help?
Upon the wings of all that is Holy, I humbly come before
you...on my knees...to seek your forgiveness, yet even
with a tear in my eye you forcefully penetrate my true
Soul and see through my hypocrisy.
Only you God, can read me true.
Never a year will escape me now, for I will live forever!
Awake in the midst of Insanity and sleep deep beneath
the burning coals of HELL!
In the midst of my Dreams I was awakened by harsh
Reality!
WHY? WHY? WHY?