I wanted to be comforted
when I was hurt...
Not only when you wished to.
I wanted a little appreciation
for the little triumphs in life,
for which I endeavoured so much...
Not negligence.
I wanted to be reminded that it\'s okay to make mistakes
when I was already trapped in guilt...
Not criticism.
I wanted a little support
when I was drowning in thoughts...
Not to be told to adjust.
I wanted to be heard
when my thoughts were eating me up...
Not ignored.
I wanted to be understood
when I was angry...
Not judged.
But that\'s okay...
I comfort myself.
I appreciate myself.
I remind myself.
I support myself.
I hear myself.
I understand myself.
But deep down,
my heart aches.
Why wasn\'t I comforted the way I deserved?
Why wasn\'t I appreciated for what I achieved?
Why wasn\'t I forgiven, but criticized?
Why wasn\'t I heard?
Why was I misunderstood?
But these things were never in my hands...
So it\'s okay,
even if it\'s not.