I woke this morning and I couldn’t see much
Except the shadows oozing through the window
Shadows that were split by speckled light rays and dusty bits floating aimlessly
My squinted eyes wandered to the window where the sun bounced off foggy water droplets
And a glow of light reminded me of heaven
The remnant of a silhouette breaking the light was there
It was the shape of a woman, walking away from me
Her back turned and she floated steadily
Curly, frizzy hair bounced in slow motion
Her dress reached to the ground and weaved loosely around her
A slight breeze ruffled the dancing fabric
Knee high boots glistened and sparkled underneath
I sensed peace and happiness from her
And it gave me a sense of ease and comfort
In some sort of way
But sadness creeped in and slapped me in the face
Punched my stomach with longing and loss
Familiarity, hurt, comfort, love, shared life, teamwork, all walking away from me
Real time heartache reached into my chest
Ripped and pulled at everything
Our arteries once entwined, once integrated, worked as one
Steered away by fate, or destiny, or whatever word or image you can muster
Fleshy tubes that once carried oxygen rich blood between us, stretch like a rubber band, tearing
Blood spackled on the ground between us
Leaving a sense of life, bond severed, longing, and so much regret
It’s so foggy and I’m doggy paddling into the future