How could I let this happen
You never tell the truth
It’s so funny
Torn between reality and a fantasy
Drowning in all the lies I’ve told
Flashes of past experience constantly replying
The damn has been broken
So many secrets
I can’t make this shit up
The voices are louder than ever
They’re screaming at me
I just wanna laugh
I can no longer cry
Enough ! Is what I tell myself
Surrounded by happiness yet can never be happy
Find every which way to be sad
To relive my pain
To drown in it
Questions unanswered
Don’t know if I’ll ever heal
Constantly exhausted
Why do I feel like this ? Why do I put myself through this ?
Pain fear sadness is all I know
That’s what I tell myself
Honestly just wanna disappear
This just can’t be life