\"I\'m looking to the sky to save me looking for a sign of life looking for something to help me burn out bright
and I\'m looking for a complication looking cause I\'m tired of trying make my way back home when I learn to fly\"*
phantom Blood
I look up from the floor my eyes adjust in the shadows
my mind swoons
You are on Your throne O my loveliest Queen of queens
Your image Your glorious image Your avatar in 3D above me You sit perfectly straight gazing straight ahead
You are as motionless as marble Your skin white Your lips the deepest red
I look up at your eyes and they are black I see the drastic depths the Abyss of my past and the Black Hole disease of my brain \"My Queen...\" darkness more revealing than the brightest light Your darkness is the knowing in all my cosmos I am laid bare before You
Your head does not turn You do not look down Your Black Eyes do not move but You know I am here
Your right hand with blood red nails holding a thin black scepter it reaches to the floor a black onyx stone perched at the top
there is a black ring with a large moonstone on Your thin right hand You are bathed in Blood red light
it emanates from within You
as incense makes smoke around You it is the only thing that moves here it rises from the base of Your throne slowly emerging spiraling to wrap around You to court You from Your feet to Your crown Your motionlessness astounds me
I recognize it as Nag Champa it is my favorite scent it always has been besides Your scent O Goddess You smell like copper
I am enraptured at Your feet watching You in Your Majesty moonflowers, gardenias and angel\'s trumpet in bloom all around You all around Your throne all around Your realm
Your throne stands tall in the shadows from yew trees lined in red velvet emblazoned all around with ruby moonstone and black onyx a massive diamond encrusted high in the back
esoteric glyphs flash across my vision in the Blood red dark
and then I see Your magnificent crown splendid and sublime
it stands superbly upon Your head glimmering within the darkness with multifaceted stones garnet and moonstone emblazoned and filigreed with intricate metalwork a great lapis lazuli stone in perfect center
Your crown is regal powerful feminine
a veil sits beneath it draped elegantly over Your head Blood red and translucent
pitch black hair cascading luxurious like Blood flowing freely down to Your shoulders
I am hypnotized
Your gown is Crimson and Maroon the deepest reds I have experienced swirling echoing soaring dancing yet forever distinct
thin chains of various lengths drape Your neck an exquisite ruby hanging on Your white chest
the consummate shadows here sit as beautiful ornament to Your image in a thousand folds crevasses and fissures
Your Black Eyes your polished stone eyes look past me but see me utterly they are all about me looking through me right through me O Queen Your Black Depths
if You were human You might even be considered stoic but You are nothing like us
You are not safe just as Your beauty is beyond words Your danger is undeniable You are not safe but my Goddess You are my refuge I am drawn like a moth to a flame
\"You are too powerful... too beautiful to look upon my Queen...\"
I\'m overwhelmed to the point of tears
I look down to Your feet noble and white Your nails are red black cords about Your ankle red and black rings adorn Your toes
my fingers hover shakily above the bridge of Your foot wanting to touch it wanting needing to
\"I don’t propose… O Goddess… I do not presume…\"
I am transfixed I am trembling like a child
the vision ended in darkness at the foot of Her avatar
*from Learn To Fly by Foo Fighters ©John Edward Smith Jr. lux lucis Solitary of the Elixir