One day, you are
Sobbing
Wiping the tears from your cheeks
with the edge of your sleeve
And trying to remember how to be
Calm
The next
You are sat at two in the morning
Listening to juice wrld instrumentals
With your boyfriend on the phone, asleep
And his family guy episode bouncing
off the walls of your kitchen
As you stare at the flowers you just received
Because it’s the start of a new school year
So you have new children to see
New lessons to teach
And somehow
You’ve just spent the entire day
Being held
Tickled
buying ridiculous outfits
to wear in the street
Kissed with such enthusiasm
It was more laughter than anything
And the taste of the laugh
In your mouth
Hasn’t quite left yet
Even though you’ve brushed your teeth
Which was once something
Too difficult in the first place
And life is still loud
And life is still scary
And you are still surrounded by boxes
That hold the entire contents of your life
These past twenty two years
And there are still more tears
And you are still facing fears
And you are still learning
How to steer
But you are here
It is strange.
One day
You are begging
Pleading
Praying for an end
To the unbearable feelings
The next
You are wearing your favourite
Michael Jackson shirt
At 2am
Sitting at the table
Beside a bag of potatoes
Contemplating your life
There have been
So many hard times
But there is light
There will be
More things to fight
But there will be light.
It will always be there
For you to find.
02:14am - 06/09/26 - kitchen table.