Do you know that your birthday is always the first to be marked on my calendar - every year without miss?
Almost a decade later I still can\'t bear the thought of something happening to you, not even in dreams.
I don\'t dream of you much but when I do it takes me right back to all those seasons I had loved you,
All of which you despised me in.
Autumn is my favourite season,
It\'s also the season I fell in love with you.
Do you know that you were the reason I started writing poems?
You are my very first muse, and I have written countless poems about you.
Did you think you would find a purer form of love?
Was I unlovable or were you just afraid?
Still unaware of the punishment I had to endure from others because I already had my first love,
Why was I forced to face those consequences when you weren\'t even mine?
- JJ