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Don\'t know

I try to make art
But I can\'t draw
I try to write poetry
It doesn\'t rhyme
I try to write a book
There is no plot
I try to to talk
I can’t form words
I wanna go someplace
I wanna be somthing
I want to tell someone
Im not boring
Ive got so much inside me
Ive got so much inside me
Theres worlds and there’s layers
Im not pathetic
I have so many thoughts that i cant decipher in words
I have so many ideas i can never bring to life
I have so many projects i never complete
I wish i could talk to you
I wish you could know me
I wish
I wish
I wish
I want to show you the stars in my soul
I can’t make out any constellations
I want to show you im so much more
Im so much more than you can see
I don’t love life
I don\'t love death
I don\'t know what I am
Sometimes I think I’m acting
And there\'s so many versions of me
I don’t know which one is real
I want to put all the thoughts into something
I can\'t draw I can’t write
I’m not amazing
I’m no prodigy
I dont know whats wrong with me
I don\'t know what i believe in
I don’t know who believes in me
I don’t know
I don\'t know
I don’t know
I don’t know
I don\'t know what I’m doing

I go against my own values
I break my own oaths
My hands are shaking
They want to create
They want to do something
Something
Something
Instead they pick on my skin
They pick till they\'re wet
Sticky red liquid stains them
I wipe them off my bed
Is this all there is to life?
Is this all I’ll ever express?
And one day I’ll die and no one will know my name
Is this all i am
This cant be all i am
What am i
What am i
What am i
What am i
What am i
What am i