Paris

If I could go back

If I could go back to when I was 6

I would savour every hug

Every kiss

From my dear mother

Who would radically risk

Everything just to be with her kids

 

If I could go back to when I was 14

I would only treat my family

as my only team

Friends and school were temporary

Oh how I would treat my home

As my sanctuary

 

If I could go back to when I was 18

I would treat my body as if it were gold

Making sure my body was unseen

Keeping my skin crystal clean

 

If I could go back to when I was 21

I would keep studying hard

As my world had just begun

I wouldn’t choose a man

That would drain my soul

Fall in love

Preparing myself for a story untold

A future that would be so hard

A struggle was to unfold

 

If I could go back to when I was 24

I would only focus on my child

And no one more

Cherish her young years while they last

And never look back into the past

 

Now I am 29

All I can do is look into the past

How relationships don’t last

Family will pass

My body is not so clean

And my heart is not so fast

Time goes quick

All the memories and pain I used to inflict

The wrong man I picked

To have a child to

My mind was tricked

 

One reason I do not regret the past

Is that I have my child

Without my journey

I wouldn’t have our love

that will ever last

I would still be wild and untamed

still living like a child

She is the reason I look back

And smile

Without her

I would never want to walk

Another mile