I don\'t know how to feel anymore,
And honestly, I don\'t even know what I am fighting for.
I want you by my side,
And I am tired of those feelings that I have to hide.
Because no matter what, it always comes back to you,
And it seems like there is nothing else for me to do.
No matter how hard I try, I can\'t get you off my mind,
Because someone who is genuine like you is hard to find.
It feels a little bit better, after we broke the ice,
But part of me knows, that maybe you were just being nice.
Unfortunately, you have done that before,
And now my brain and my heart are at war.
I want to believe that you accepted those feelings,
But the spiraling thoughts of what if are constantly leaving my head reeling.
I am letting my delusions of hope take over,
Because finding someone like you feels like finding a four leaf clover.
I can tell, that the people who know the truth think I am insane,
And I know that if I get hurt, then I only have myself to blame.
Because if it wasn\'t made to be me and you, then why does it feel like the universe is playing games?
Why did you come into my life when I finally accepted my fate?
Feeling like someone like you was going to be worth the wait.
Now I am torn, not knowing what to do,
Because in the end, I so badly want it to be you.
It kills me not knowing whether or not you feel the same way,
Because you don\'t seem like the type who has games that they like to play.
You do seem like the type that can be a little insecure and shy,
And I know you are a genuine guy.
You are not like the others who hurt me in the past,
And as much as it hurts, I don\'t regret that I asked.
I feel like maybe things are starting to turn around,
And that little bit of hope is what\'s keeps me afloat when I am feeling down.
Realizing that maybe you shouldn\'t let go of something you want because the situation isn\'t ideal,
Because no matter how hard you try, you can\'t pretend when you know something is real.