I thought I’d finally found someone I could trust with my heart.
Someone I could love without preparing to fall apart.
I tore down my walls and let you see my wounds.
I let myself believe I was safe with you.
I tied my favorite songs to the sound of your name.
Every fucking melody made my heart flutter.
For once, my mind felt quiet, my chest felt safe.
Until the same songs started hurting instead.
Until you stabbed me in the back and called my trust nothing.
You took everything I gave you and treated it like it meant shit.
Now I don’t know how to trust without expecting betrayal.
You killed the part of me that knew how to accept love.
Made me regret every vulnerable word I ever spoke.
You fucked up the progress I fought so hard to make.
And left me fighting battles I thought I’d finally survived.
I turned all that mental agony against my own skin.
Reached for a blade because I couldn’t escape my own head.
I wanted the noise to stop, even for a fucking second.
You have no idea how much of me your actions destroyed.
I hate that I trusted you, but I hate what I’ve become more.
Because all I ever wanted was to love you without being hurt...