I came back alive, recovered, built this life alone, of it I am proud
I needed no one by my side, the wood is stacked, chickens fed, fields are plowed
But keeping an open mind and open heart if she came to me and took me higher, to myself I vowed
But I never saw this coming, you left me falling into the sky without a prayer
Lost in the sunset painted clouds, tell me am I crazy or did I feel you there?
To you and how you tripped me, there’s nothing in my past life I can compare
But she says that she doesn’t want anything more with me
I wanted more, but I’m still smiling if friends is all we’ll ever be
But I don’t think I have anymore inside, I think she tossed away the last key
So away, back inside I turn
There’s only one for whom I could ever yearn
But it’s not in pain, I already bled so much for this life, I will thrive in what I earn
I couldn’t imagine anyone else could, in this heart so cynical, untrusting, defeated, plant a seed
Closure is something I’m not sure I want, will never have, but I have no need
If it isn’t she who follows, I don’t want to lead
I live my life with unbothered joy, but ‘what could’ve been’ is a question that begs to be asked
Were there ever going to be a chance for me to love again, that surely felt like the last
How am I supposed to fall for anyone else when she’s a standard that cannot be surpassed?
Were it in my control, I wouldn’t have crashed like that, I wouldn’t have taken the fall
Because I’m happy with this life, I don’t need anyone to wake up beside, fight for or call
And If I can’t have it all, I’m happy with not having it at all