and after we hung up the phone
and i cried the tears i needed to cry
and sent you the text no one should ever have to send to the one they think would hold their heart forever
i looked down at my trembling hands and finally accepted a simple, life changing truth:
your future forever will not be mine
and i wont be yours
but the small space that’s reserved in my heart for you will forever have your name on its table
not as an open ended invitation for you to sit and enjoy one day whenever you decide to grow
but as a monument and reminder
that i will never give so much of myself away and keep so little ever again.