Still awaiting your response

I\'ve been blocked

There’s no way to reach you now

And

I swore to myself

I wouldn\'t want to

but

here I am

The raven watches as I keep repeating your voice memos

I’m desperate to hear your voice again

I\'m desperate to talk to you again

But your silence answers for you

And

I can’t blame you

I wish I could blame you
but I know it isn’t fair

Will I ever get over this melancholy ache in my heart

First love is supposed to fade gently
but yours still burns in the corners of my days

The future we planned together still lives in my notebooks

My friends say I’ll heal,
but they never loved anyone as I loved you

You and I promised we’d always be here for each other

Except when I look around

You’re nowhere to be found, only the raven  

I see your jacket in my closet

I put it on again to remember the warmth of your hug

and to forget the coldness of your shoulder

I find pieces of you in the quiet between midnight and dawn

Loving you is a habit my heart refuses to break

even as my mind tries to let go

Letting go doesn’t mean the love disappears

And that\'s the hardest truth to face

The raven perches on my windowsill
reminding me that love
like loss
never leaves