You know the pain hits different when that object becomes too dull
Where you dread the fact that its of no use
That you cannot satisfy your own hurt in just a few swipes.
You just want to cut and watch it pour, watch the red slowly go down
Down your arm
Down your leg
Down your thigh
Down your stomach
Down your body
And the thoughts in your mind just slowly disappear one by one
As the only thing filled is what hurt you cause others
And the regret you feel
That pit
Suddenly your mind will be screaming \"FUCKING FAILURE! YOU DIDN\'T DO IT\"
And you sit and, you rock yourself, crying, saying goodbye
None is working
And you know that pain when everyone is leaving
When everyone is telling you this is your fault
And you\'re not worth it
The stinging feeling is all you know
Until it eventually goes numb
And its no longer the pain you know
Its the pain that knows you