I am at a loss;
Is it better to write without a guise?
No metaphor?
No metaphysics?
Not even religious language and spiritualism for flavor?
I don\'t want to grow stale, but if metaphysics is wrong, are guises not also?
I want to be knowledgeable, not coy with meaning.
Alas, is abstraction really all that bad?
I mean we evolved it.
Without abstract thought we would understand geometry far less, on average.
I don\'t know, and I know I don\'t know; and I must remind myself that despite being a mote of my last self that I am still smarter than average.
I\'d be an idiot savant: Mathematics, the social sciences, history, English—they I\'d understand; but taxes and getting a job, driving even, I would not.
And I only had three school teachers show genuine curiosity to my creativity. The rest thought it was all stupid from me, or didn\'t bat an eye (one talked about cumming all over my face once, but she just liked my long, dark, curly hair); some of them were against me using circle brackets, others, square brackets, one teacher, the semicolon.
And I used to be a cosmicist, but my stepmother got into me one time, and me having the illnesses I was developing lost the aspect altogether.
I don\'t know. I\'m at a loss.