Away from home for so long
Every minute I thought of the day
That I would return home
To see all of my friends
My family
I want to go home. . .
Living in hell
For so long
And people kept me there
To suffer
To hate myself even more
I hate myself so much. . .
A year and a half passes by
I get to go home
I hit up all of my “friends”
Friends. . .
Why don’t you call back?
Friends? ? ?
Back to my family
Family. . .
You’ve changed
Is this good
Or is this bad?
What’s going on?
I don’t know what to do
I don’t want to go back
I don’t want to stay
I want my friends
I want my family
Am I selfish?
So many photos of my friends
Facebook shows them smiling
I want to smile
I want to be in there photos
I want my old life back
My old life
I say I don’t want to die
I really don’t
My life is empty
Emptier than my heart
I do wish to die
I don’t want to die empty
So many thoughts
Oh so, so many thoughts
I cannot banish them
But they can banish me
Into nothing
Nothing?
I am scared
Scared to admit it
Scared to show it
Scared to be scared
Why?
Why?
I can’t cry when I want to
I cry when I don’t want to
Please save me if there’s a God
Catch my tear drops
On my keyboard
Tear drops on my keyboard