Today at once I feel miserable
A pain a feeling terrible
Lost I am I feel
Nothing bright appeals
Surrounded with thoughts all glum
Externally though appear mum
A turbulent storm within
Even to write short sentences I frown
Careful and cautious not to appear clown
I want to escape from the world
Be one with the thin air
Where nothing uncanny everything fair
Hurt to look at people with masks on
Full blown there careers grown
Is it my folly innocent I’m born?
Between the guile and deceit soul torn
Silent my senses lay numb
As if intoxicated and aplomb
Who has courage to knock the inner fortress that surround?
Longing for expression, emotions and feelings lay abound.
Heart is filled with fear
Will the human race get filled and flooded?
Once my expressions and thoughts are unloaded
Why am I born with a mind so observant?
Without that at least I would have had peace
Endorsing to the world sometimes ignorance is bliss
Parting smart friends and hugging naives planting a kiss
Once stoic and resilient
Never people dared to comment
Prepared for verbal duel one or two
Strong as a child I grew
Spirit weakened in weeks
Mind dud thoughts speaks
Why did it happen?
Memory taps and scraps the soul
Weak inner fortress the soul creases and crumples.