I hear these vile voices in my head
They take my smile, they want me dead
Things about them that I just can’t explain
They feel my fear, they poison my pain
They make it hard to hold my head high
People tell me look to God but all I see is the sky
Time’s passing right by and I don’t even know it
All I have left now are lonely words of a poet
I see things that no one else can see
I’m in my own world to another degree
Take my damaged soul and rip it in two
Give them thee other half so I can make this through
Talk to me but don’t be concerned if I cry
I’m the only one here and yet I want to die
I can feel things that you cannot feel
You’re in your world and I wonder what’s real
I’m trying! I’m dying!
I hope one day I will finally stop crying
Sane as can be people and I am the cull
I’m trying not to put a bullet in my skull
They’re a famished dog and I feed them fear
One tells me things are not as they appear
I have an angel in my head that knows my strife
But why would he want me to take my life
Demons and devils hold my soul
They hold it tight, they want control
But I won’t give them their satisfactions
Of dividing my actions into fractions
Sometimes I stop and wonder
When I will be six feet under
I’ll be six feet deep but the voices will follow
Living for eternity in what’s already hollow
And I’m wallowing in my own pride
I’m scared as hell, I’m petrified
Another commands orders I don’t want to make
When I refuse he gets louder and makes me shake
I’m talking to walls that don’t talk back
I’m walking on ice with a colossal crack
I think about things I bet no one else does
Remnants of memories that I once was
I’m told to hurt but I hurt myself instead
I hope all of this is just in my head
Look me in my eyes and feel this pain
I’ve got screams and sorrow in my brain
Oil boiling in and out my veins
Voices tying me down in choking chains
I’m out here burning in the rain
Getting use to being called insane
I wonder about the last thing that remains
Before I blow everything out my brittle brains
It’s tough! It’s rough!
But I wonder when all of this will be enough!