I’m in thinking mode again
Do I us my brain in vein?
I can’t make up my mind
If I keep exploring I might find
What I’m looking for or what I need
Lies in places where the sun don’t shine
But at least I can say its mine
For how long, for the time being
For how long, until it has no meaning.
So why do I stress myself?
Why must I second guess myself?
When I know it has no meaning
Am I starting to get the feeling?
Have I lost control of the situation?
Have I let my feelings grow?
Have I been brainwashed?
I only have myself to blame, filling my head & thoughts with dirty fantasies.
Pleasures that make me go against my morals.
That make my mind ache, but only after it’s been done.
When I do it I enjoy it, only if I let down my barriers.
Should I let down my guard and let you in?
But it’s wrong, this feeling
It’s wrong this needing
Is pleasure really the key?
Fast loving, the way it should really be?