I am he - the spy

I exist in a world

That is neither smoke nor mirror

I sully all that surrounds me


I am the man

Who cheats on his wife

I am the mistress

Who cheats with the man


I exist in a nether world

A place of shadows

Cast in a scene

That is concrete and grey


Yet though you will despise me

And yes, you should

Do not say that I betray

For I've never belonged.


"To betray, you must first belong. I never belonged."  Kim Philby.