I am he - the spy
I exist in a world
That is neither smoke nor mirror
I sully all that surrounds me
I am the man
Who cheats on his wife
I am the mistress
Who cheats with the man
I exist in a nether world
A place of shadows
Cast in a scene
That is concrete and grey
Yet though you will despise me
And yes, you should
Do not say that I betray
For I've never belonged.
"To betray, you must first belong. I never belonged." Kim Philby.