I sit up every morning My minds in clutch I move for only a second The weight of you pulls me down I stare into nothing Thoughts are all I see I'm barely breathing I try an live a normal day I'm stuck in the bathroom This is my old routine How did I let it get back to this Two fingers and my throat It disgusts me You disgust me I disgust me They disgust me I'm lost I'm alone in my own zone My own world, it twirls This'll never end So I prepare for death I just have nothing left But I step back Look at how bad they got it I may be depressed and I may be sick But I refuse to die.. Not like this.