Lonelykaren

If today.........

If today, i realized

that i loved you

that everthing you said

was always the thruth.

If today, i knew

what i knew then

what i found out of life

and that you were my friend.

If today, i foud out

why i was like this

why i always pushed you away

and why i couldnt see.

If today, i saw you

i would run up to you

i would hold you with force

and never let you go.

If today, you left

and were never seen again

and never triend to reach me

then you really werent my friend.

If today, i think

about how life was

about how things ended

then things went to far.

So now, i really know that

life is never what it seems

life is so hopeless

and so full of lost dreams.

If today, i should die

i pray that you are not near

i pray that you wont judge me

because i had so much fear.

I realized, i knew, i found out, i saw you, you left, i think, i know that, i should die.