FROM ONE DAY TO THE NEXT
I WAKE UP FEELING REGRET,
TELLING MYSELF IT'LL BE OKAY
JUST HAVE TO PATIENTLY WAIT,
I KNOW IT'LL WORK OUT ONE DAY
IF I JUST DON'T QUIT THE FIGHT,
MOM TELLS ME EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE
BUT I JUST CAN'T STOP CRYIN'
THE FEELING ARISES IN THE NIGHT
AND NEVER LEAVES TIL EARLY MORNING LIGHT,
I KNOW THE REASON WHY
BUT I JUST CAN'T STOP THE FRIGHT
I WANT TO SHARE MY STORY WITH YOU
BUT IT'LL LEAVE ME FEELING BLUE,
AND I KNOW IT'LL BRING THE TEARS AGAIN
JUST LIKE NOW THEY FALL DOWN MY CHIN,
TO LAND IN MY LAP LIKE A SPILLED DRINK
THEY STAIN EVERYTHING IN SIGHT,
REMINDING ME OF BITTER TIMES
INSTEAD OF ALLOWING THE SUN TO SHINE,
AS IT'S MEANT TO BE
BRIGHT AND WILD AND FREE.
JUST LIKE I WAS YESTERDAY
BEFORE THEY LOCKED ME INSIDE THIS PLACE,,
IT'S NOT A PRISON OR A JAIL
NO THIS IS TRULY HELL,
PAINFUL MOMENTS OF REGRET
SOME THING I CAN NOT FORGET,
WAKE UP EVERY MORNING TO DRUG MYSELF
AND FEEL THE PRESSURE WITH IN,
THE GROWING DISEASE TAKEN CONTROL
WILL I EVER BE WHOLE,,
JUST A THOUGHT THAT I HAVE
BURIED INSIDE MY HEAD,
MOMENTS OF TRUTH THEY ARRIVE
ROBBING ME BLIND OF MY LIFE,
SEIZURES AND MEDICATIONS AND PAGETS DISEASE, MULTIPLE PAIN ISSUES IN 95% OF MY BODY,, THIS IS THE CHAINS OF DEATH THAT HOLDS ONE IN PLACE WITH THE ENDLESS ACHES OF REALITY, I’VE DEALT WITH THIS SINCE 2005 AND EACH DAY NO MATTER WHAT MEDICATION I TAKE IT SEEM’S TO BECOME ALITTLE WORSE LEAVING ME FILLED WITH DOUBT FROM KNOWING THAT WITH IN A FEW MONTHS FROM NOW THAT I COULD BE WHEEL CHAIR BOUND DUE TO THE MEDICAL PROBLEMS I HAVE ,, THIS IS HURTFUL IN MANY WAYS AND I STRUGGLE TO FIGHT EACH AND EVERY DAY TO KEEP IT FROM HAPP