The first time we met was so unxpected,
It's the first time we talked and that's what I respected,
Who would've expected it would come this far?
I dreamt that you'll one day be my star.
Such silly dreams I've encoutered in my sleep,
They're not so peaceful and memorable to keep.
I try to find harmony in this stupid life I lead,
A new beginning is all I beg and plead.
How do I escape such a delightful nightmare?
When they keep coming back and it just isn't fair.
I guess coming back was my biggest mistake,
If I hadn't been stupid, I'll be celebrating with a cake.
And now I got the concept,And I came up with a conclusion,And I have learned to accept,
That such goals are just an illusion.
Every now and then, I find myself staring at an empty space;
I couldn't forget about the image of your face.
I await the moment where we just make eye-contact,
And maybe you'll realize I've missed you is a fact.
And also the clock keeps on ticking fast,
Soon all of this will be our memorable past.
I wish I could somehow erase my memory,
Just to end this endless journey through misery.
Sun rises and then it sets down,
And the earth continues to revolve around,
Many nights have have past, yet we haven't bid goodnight,
And I sensed my wish coming true, but not quite.
Closer and closer you guys have become,
While I grew farther and continue to succumb.
I remember when you said that I cannot be replaced,
I'd like you to think back on that, but the thoughts can't be erased.
I've questioned you then, I'll question you now,
You've found my replacement, I don't even care how.
I just wished I'd known this earlier,
So I could've prepared to surrender.
Now I drown myself in fears,
Never to fall again in so many years.
This has become a major problem, it's just so unfair,
Trying to solve this matter has gotten me nowhere;
I'm just a guy that no one will ever know,
Don't even bother saying hi, cuz I won't say hello.
Maybe you've lost sight or you just didn't see.
That there is no one else like me,
So after all, my wish really did came true.
It's not meant for me, but I'm happy for you two.
You don't have to worry bout me at all,
Go on with your feelings and let me fall,
I wonder why you said that things won't be the same,
That doesn't seem to be the case in this situation, what a shame;
Such a beautiful bond like ours has to end,
Just so I can be free and let my heart mend;
My thoughts on him are finally complete,
As I kept saying: I've got nothing to compete.
Now I've witnessed enough, so it's time to settle,
I know it's not a competition but it still is a battle.
It's a never ending battle over despair,
A battle of oneself trying to breathe the same air;
Now I have to be strong and fight my way out,
Cuz no one will even hear me shout,
But I guess there's no reason why I shouldn't be happy,
I think he'll take care of you better than me,
And now you don't have to worry and tell me to smile,
Cuz you'l be worrying about trying to keep his smile.
It's just ironic how I've known it all along,
I believe it's my fault for you to make him wait this long,
So I apologize and I will admit I've lost,
I hope I get forgiven in this winter frost.