I looked down at my bleeding wrist
All the years of pain now slowly bleeding away
I sent my suicide note to my ex-boyfriend telling him to not forget me
That I loved him
and that I was sorry for all the shit I put him through
that he made the last year of my life worth living
and to not forget he thought me what is was like to love someone
and what it felt like to be loved
As I stared at my bleeding wrist I remembered
all the good
and the bad
times of my life
i remembered meeting my best friend Renae
meeting my other best friend Billi
my seventh birthday party with all my friends
when i met my grandparents in kansas for the first time
when i met my brother dustin
when my mom and dad finally got married
my first boyfriend
my second
my third
my forth
my fifth
when i met him.....
his name was Paul Zaccone
who knew when I first met him he would save my life
he was a boyscout and now a eaglescout
a good catholic boy
a gentalman
my friend
my boyfriend
now my ex boyfriend
MY GUARDAIN ANGEL ON EARTH
i remember how he would hold me
in his strong arms
and i felt safe and loved
when he would joke around with me
when he would tickle me just to hear me laugh
said the most wonderful things just to make me smile
didn't walk away when i cut myself
didn't walk away when i told him i was recovering
from anerxia
and i had been cutting since 8th grade
i told him about my insecurities
about my past with all of my abuse
i told him i loved him
he told me back on our five month anniversy
he knows all the little corky things i do
like i cant go anywhere without my earbuds
i listen to country music
but my favorite band is 3 Doors Down
most importantly
he saved my life
when i was willing to end it
i never believed in angels or gaurdain angels
but know i do believe in them because someone was watching over me
from Heaven
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