when you notice that everything and everyone around you are happy,
and you realize your cheeks are wet,
you realize your crying,
and you just don’t know why,
and all you want is to just be happy,
but somehow someone always rains in my parade,
and i just can’t anymore so i say at least a few 50 times before i go back to pretending to just be fine,
but I’m not, not at all,
I’m breaking,
my heart hurts,
its aching,
yet still it beats