When people ask me what am I afraid of
They may be surprised that my answer
Is not spiders, heights, or small spaces
But what I fear most is losing people
And I don’t mean losing them to Death
I mean that I fear people leaving me
Because the pain of rejection
Is worse than any physical pain
I’ve experienced, so when I say
That I’m afraid of losing you
I’m saying that I love you
And darling, I never wanted to lose you
I never thought I would lose you of all people
Because there was something real
Between us, you felt like home to me
We haven’t talked in months
And I feel like I’ve lost you
I thought you needed time and space
But an unanswered ‘Merry Christmas’
Still hangs over my head and
If feels like you’ve pushed me out of your life for good
That is why I’m afraid to reach out to you
I’m afraid that you don’t want me anymore
I don’t want you to say
That you don’t want me anymore
I don’t think I could handle the heartbreak
I still care deeply about you
I still want to be part of your life
I want to be there for you
When you need someone
I just want you, but what I want most
Is for you to be happy
And if that means I’m not
In your life anymore then okay
Just please know this
I am always be here for you if you need me