b r johnson

taps.

two pulsating souls-

with joy-

tempo fortissimo.

 

friends.
years pass.
love.
marital vows.
children.
perfection.
suddenly-

 

infidelity.

 

sin.
elegy.

 

two pulsating souls-
polyrhythmic now-
tempo rubato.

 

we-
once.
harmoniously syncopated.


we-
now.
extinguished unjustly.


metronome-
off.


qualm.
shame.

nix steadfast wax. 

wax belonging to our once forevermore raging flame.

 

pastoral interlude.
passing. drudging.
corps. halt.
about - face.
audial pain-
unheard afore this bat-like shrill chillingly shrieked and strained.
seismic sounds emanate as your corps pounds ground.
rattling, nauseating, profound and proud.
your corps-
exuding wartime stormtrooper intensity.
your corps-
reminiscent of nazi germany.
your corps-
pivoting.
taps-
queued.
my existence-
sorrowful.

 

my existence-

 

the bugle.

 

propagating. menacing.
echoing. distancing.
endless. hellish.
flaunting. haunting.

 

two pulsating souls-
eternally stand still.
my own-
longing.
tempo nil.

 

cranial angst clouding-
fogging my mind above.
unsought unconscious retrospection of our love.
mine unto hers.
hers unto mine.
memories fossilized.
permanently petrified.
tablature and scriptures of a life before-
hereupon entangled-
ne\'er more.
at a time we\'d been enduringly enwreathed and intertwined.
twas pure, innocent bliss-
a euphoric life.
begone- sacrosanct stars shimmering amongst electrified skies.

 

wherefore heart- ears, mind, and eyes?
senses smothered, suffocated-
i\'d been ignorant.
blind.

 

us. we-
traversed a half century.
your lustful, selfish moment eradicating, annihilating me.
superficially. surreptitiously.
fervently. swiftly.
us. we-
ghastly grasped.
gone. deceased.
godspeed glorious gold-laden quondam generation.
paroxysm, algospasm-
thrusting indescribably.
lugubrious soul-
sans syncopation.
idealizing suicide-
unnerving. consternating.
auricular horns.
amplification dilating.
upon me encroaching.
close.
closer.
closing.
corps closest now.
a life grotesque-
once arabesque.
memories crumbling.
tumbling. fumbling.
my funeral.
my cadence.
no church.
no mass.
ice-cold brass.
percussion sickening.
rudiments crass.
loudening, scraping.
skeleton shaking.
heart aching-
disallowed awakening.
satan taunting.
please, please.
on knees.
cease.

 

befallen with unwelcome irrepressible sobbing.

 

unjust disability.
unmistakable impossibility.
thoughts impoverished-
distressed and destitute.
i shan\'t ever render-
the corps.

 

mute.

still-
i love a monster.

 

one monotone soul-
tempo grandioso.

 

chilling shrilling shrieks.
aloud.
again.

 

i am broken.

 

drum corps. attention.

 

ten. hut.

 

about. face.

 

forward. march.

 

monster. leader.
corps.
major.
monster. tireless.
trudging.
trekking.
monster. frivolous.
fearless.
soulless.
monstrosity.

 

monster,

tis undeniably true-
i will always. forever- 

love you.