Sad, I am sad
I don\'t know why I\'m sad.
I\'m still young
But I\'m sad.
The doctors call it depression
Because they read it out of a textbook
They aren\'t in my head
They don\'t feel what I feel,
Or what I am unable to
My first time at the mental hospital
The nurse asked me \"How do you feel\"
What a weird question, I thought
Because I just tried to kill myself
They wanted me on medicine
But, I had my own ways to kill the pain
Blades, alcohol, anything to feel numb
I would drink cough syrup like water
As if I needed it to live
Because maybe I did