A sickening squelch and I fall to the floor.
I shudder while the burning cold seeps in.
I raise my head inch by inch and our eyes lock.
The face of my killer smiling with false concern.
Why do I bother I lazily muse as his lips part like a sore.
Why do I pretend to have friends and kin.
Why are they doing this to me, to mock ?
Why does It still burn ?
I thought I became stronger.
Colder, more resistant
Thought I could no longer
Be hurt if I became more distant.
My friend calls from afar, Goodbye.
It was fun See you soon,
I parry with that lie.
As I retract into my solitary cocoon.
I think of him yet the more I grasp he fades away.
My friend, my killer a stranger.
Yet the thoughts linger and stay.
At how we can’t be there forever at that time.
So I paint myself a smile out of pain.
Even though I’m already lifeless and dead.
The thought corrodes my will like lime.
How to the world and them I won’t remain
But disappear instead.